The Enfolded Prelude: Book Third
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It was a dreary morning when the chaisewheels
Rolled over the flat plains of Huntingdona wide plain o' erhung with clouds,
And through the open windows nothing cheered our way till first I we saw
The long-backed long-roofed chapel of King's College rearlift
His Turrets and pinnacles in answering files,
Extended high above the a dusky groves.grove.
Soon afterwards Advancing, we espied upon the road
A student clothed in gown and tasselled cap;cap,
Striding along as if o'ertasked by Time,
Or covetous of exercise and air;
He passed nor was I master of my eyes
Till he was left a hundred yards an arrow's flight behind.
The place as we approached seemed more As near and morenearer to the spot we drew,
To have It seemed to suck us in with an eddy's force, and sucked us in
More eagerly at every step we took.force.
Onward we drove beneath the castle, downCastle; caught,
By While crossing Magdalene Bridge we went and crossed the Cam,Bridge, a glimpse of Cam;
And at the Hoop we landed, "Hoop" alighted, famous inn.Inn.
My spirit was up, my thoughts were full of hope;
Some friends I had had, acquaintances who there
Seemed friends friends, poor simple schoolboys schoolboys, now hung round
With honour and importance. In importance: in a world
Of welcome faces up and down I rovedroved;
Questions, directions, counsel warnings and adviceadvice,
Flowed in upon me me, from all sides. Fresh sides; fresh day
Of pride and pleasure: pleasure! to myself I seemed
A man of business and expense, and went
From shop to shop about my own affairs,
To tutors Tutor or to tailors Tailor, as befel,befell,
From street to street with loose and careless heart.mind.
I was the dreamer, Dreamer, they the dream; Dream; I roamed
Delighted through the motley spectacle:spectacle;
Gowns grave grave, or gaudy, doctors, students, streets,
Lamps, gateways, Courts, cloisters, flocks of churches, courts and towers—
Strange transformation for a mountain youth,
A northern villager. gateways, towers:
Migration strange for a stripling of the hills,
A northern villager.
As if by wordthe change
Of magic or Had waited on some fairy's power, Fairy's wand, at once
Behold me rich in monies monies, and attired
In splendid clothes, garb, with hose of silk, and hair
Glittering Powdered like rimy trees trees, when frost is keen—
My lordly dressing-gown, I pass it by,
With other signs of manhood which supplied
The lack of beard. keen.
My lordly dressing-gown, I pass it by,
With other signs of manhood that supplied
The lack of beard. The weeks went roundly on,
With invitations, suppers, wine, wine and fruit,
Smooth housekeeping within, and all without
Liberal Liberal, and suiting gentleman's array.
The Evangelist St. John my patron was;was:
Three gloomy Gothic courts are his, and in the first
Was my abiding-place, a nook obscure.obscure;
Right underneath, the college College kitchens made
A humming sound, less tuneable than beesbees,
But hardly less industrious; with shrill notes
Of sharp command and scolding intermixed.
Near me was hung Trinity's loquacious clockclock,
Who never let the quarters, night or day,
Slip by him unproclaimed, and told the hours
Twice over with a male and female voice.
Her pealing organ was my neighbour too;
And from my bedroom I in moonlight nightspillow, looking forth by light
Could see right opposite, a few yards off,Of moon or favouring stars, I could behold
The antechapel, antechapel where the statue stood
Of Newton with his prism and silent face.face,
The marble index of a mind for ever
Voyaging through strange seas of Thought, alone.
Of college College labours, of the lecturer's Lecturer's room
All studded round, as thick as chairs could stand,
With loyal students students, faithful to their books,
Half-and-half idlers, hardy recusants,
And honest dunces; dunces of important days,
Examinations, when the man was weighed
As in the balance a balance! of excessive hopes,
Tremblings withal and commendable fears,
Small jealousies jealousies, and triumphs good or bad—
I make short mention. Things they were which then
I did not love, nor do I love them now:—
Let others that know more speak as they know.
Such glory was but little sought by me,
And little won. But it is right to say
That even so early, Yet from the first crude days
Of settling-time settling time in this my new untried abode,
Not seldom I had melancholy thoughts
From personal and family regards,was disturbed at times by prudent thoughts,
Wishing to hope without a hope hope, some fears
About my future worldly maintenance,
And, more than all, a strangeness in my the mind,
A feeling that I was not for that hourhour,
Nor for that place. But wherefore be cast down,
Why should I grieve? I was a chosen son.down?
For hither I had come with holy powers
And faculties, whether (not to work or feel:
To apprehend all passions and all moods
Which time, and place, speak of Reason and season do impressher pure
Upon Reflective acts to fix the visible universe, and workmoral law
Like changes there by force Deep in the conscience, nor of my own mind.Christian Hope,
I was a freeman, in the purest senseBowing her head before her sister Faith
Was free, and to majestic ends was strong—
I do not speak of learning, moral truth,
Or understanding 'twas enough for me
To know that I was otherwise endowed.As one far mightier), hither I had come,
When the first glitter of the show was passed,Bear witness Truth, endowed with holy powers
And the first dazzle of the taper-light,faculties, whether to work or feel.
As if with a rebound my mind returnedOft when the dazzling show no longer new
Into its former self. Oft Had ceased to dazzle, ofttimes did I leavequit
My comrades, and leave the crowd, buildings and groves,
And walked along the fields, as I paced alone the level fields,
With heaven's blue concave reared above my head.
And now it was that through such change entire,fields
And this first absence Far from those shapes lovely sights and sounds sublime
Wherewith With which I had been conversant, my the mind
Seemed busier in itself than heretofore—
At least I more directly recognised
My powers and habits. Let Drooped not; but there into herself returning,
With prompt rebound seemed fresh as heretofore.
At least I more distinctly recognised
Her native instincts: let me dare to speak
A higher language, say that now I felt
The strength and consolation which What independent solaces were mine.mine,
To mitigate the injurious sway of place
Or circumstance, how far soever changed
In youth, or 'to' be changed in after years.
As if awakened, summoned, rouzed, sununoned, roused, constrained,
I looked for universal things, things; perused
The common countenance of earth and heaven,sky:
And, Earth, nowhere unembellished by some trace
Of that first Paradise whence man was driven;
And sky, whose beauty and bounty are expressed
By the proud name she bears the name of Heaven.
I called on both to teach me what they might;
Or, turning the mind in upon itself,herself,
Pored, watched, expected, listened, spread my thoughts,thoughts
And spread them with a wider creeping, creeping; felt
Incumbencies more awful, visitings
Of the upholder, Upholder of the tranquil soul,
Which underneath all passion lives secureThat tolerates the indignities of Time,
A steadfast life. And, from the centre of Eternity
All finite motions overruling, lives
In glory immutable. But peace, it is peace! enough
To notice Here to record that I was ascending mounting now
To such community with highest truth.
A track pursuing not untrod before,
From deep analogies by thought supplied,
Or consciousnesses not to be subdued,truth—
A track pursuing, not untrod before,
From strict analogies by thought supplied
Or consciousnesses not to be subdued.
To every natural form, rock, fruit fruits, or flower,
Even the loose stones that cover the highway,
I gave a moral life life: I saw them feel,
Or linked them to some feeling. The feeling: the great mass
Lay bedded in a quickening soul, and all
That I beheld respired with inward meaning.
Thus much for the one presence, and the life
Of the great whole; suffice it here to add
That whatsoe'er Add that whate'er of terror, Terror or of love,Love
Or beauty, Beauty, Nature's daily face put on
From transitory passion, unto this
I was as wakeful even sensitive as waters are
To the sky's motion, influence in a kindred sensemood
Of passion passion; was obedient as a lute
That waits upon the touches of the wind.
So it was with me in my solitude:
So often among multitudes of men.
Unknown, unthought of, yet I was most rich,rich—
I had a world about me 'twas my own;
I made it, for it only lived to me,
And to the God who sees into the heart.
I had a world about me 'twas my own,Such sympathies, though rarely, were betrayed
I made it; for By outward gestures and by visible looks:
Some called it only lived to me,madness so indeed it was,
And to the God who looked into my mind.If child-like fruitfulness in passing joy,
Such sympathies would sometimes shew themselvesIf steady moods of thoughtfulness matured
To inspiration, sort with such a name;
If prophecy be madness; if things viewed
By outward gestures poets in old time, and by visible looks—
Some called it madness; such indeed it was,
If childlike fruitfulness in passing joy,
If steady moods of thoughtfulness matured
To inspiration, sort with such a name;
If prophesy be madness, if things viewed
By poets of old time, and higher up
By the first men, earth's first inhabitants,
May in these tutored days no more be seen
With undisordered sight. higher up
By the first men, earth's first inhabitants,
May in these tutored days no more be seen
With undisordered sight. But leaving this,
It was no madness, for I had an the bodily eye
Which in Amid my strongest workings evermore
Was looking for searching out the shades lines of difference
As they lie hid in all exterior external forms,
Near or remote, minute or vast vast; an eye
Which Which, from a stone, a tree, a stone, a withered leaf,
To the broad ocean and the azure heavens
Spangled with kindred multitudes of stars,
Could find no surface where its power might sleep,sleep;
Which spake perpetual logic to my soul,
And by an unrelenting agency
Did bind my feelings even as in a chain.
And here, O friend, Friend! have I retraced my life
Up to an eminence, and told a tale
Of matters which not falsely I may callbe called
The glory of my youth. Of genius, power,
Creation, Creation and divinity itself,itself
I have been speaking, for my theme has been
What passed within me. Not of outward things
Done visibly for other minds minds, words, signs,
Symbols or actions actions, but of my own heart
Have I been speaking, and my youthful mind.
O heavens, Heavens! how awful is the might of souls,
And what they do within themselves while yet
The yoke of earth is new to them, the world
Nothing but a wild field where they were sown.
This is is, in truth truth, heroic argument,
And This genuine prowess prowess, which I wished to touch,touch
With hand however weak weak, but in the main
It lies far hidden from the reach of words.
Points have we all of us within our souls
Where all stand single; this I feel, and make
Breathings for incommunicable powers.powers;
Yet each man But is not each a memory to himself,
And, therefore, now that I we must quit this theme,
I am not heartless; heartless, for there's not a man
That lives who hath not had known his god-like hours,
And knows feels not what majestic sway an empire we haveinherit
As natural beings in the strength of Nature.
Enough, No more: for now into a populous plain
We must descend. A traveller Traveller I am,
And all my Whose tale is only of myself himself; even so—
So be it, if the pure in heart delight
To follow me, and thou, O honoured friend,
Who in my thoughts art ever at my side,
Uphold as heretofore my fainting steps.so,
So be it, if the pure of heart be prompt
To follow, and if thou, my honoured Friend!
Who in these thoughts art ever at my side,
Support, as heretofore, my fainting steps.
It hath been told already how my sighttold, that when the first delight
Was dazzled by the That flashed upon me from this novel show, and howshow
Erelong I did Had failed, the mind returned into myself return.herself;
So did it seem, and so in truth Yet true it was—
Yet this was but short-lived. Thereafter came
Observance less devout: is, that I had made a change
In climate, and my nature's outward coat
Changed also, also slowly and insensibly.
To Full oft the deep quiet and majestic exalted thoughts
Of loneliness succeeded gave way to empty noise
And superficial pastimes, pastimes; now and then
Forced labour, and more frequently forced hopes,hopes;
And, worse than worst of all, a treasonable growth
Of indecisive judgements judgments, that impaired
And shook the mind's simplicity. And yet
This was a gladsome time. Could I behold—
Who less insensible than sodden clay
On a sea-river's bed at ebb of tide
Could have beheld with undelighted heart
so many happy youths, so wide and fair
A congregation in its budding-time
Of health, and hope, and beauty, all at once
So many divers samples of the growth
Of life's sweet season, could have seen unmoved
That miscellaneous garland of wild flowers
Upon the matron temples of a place
So famous through the world? To me at least
It was a goodly prospect; for, through youth,
Though I had been trained up to stand unpropped,
And independent musings pleased me so
That spells seemed on me when I was alone,
Yet could I only cleave to solitude
In lonesome places if a throng was near
That way I leaned by nature, for my heart
Was social and loved idleness and joy.behold.
Who, less insensible than sodden clay
In a sea-river's bed at ebb of tide,
Could have beheld, with undelighted heart,
So many happy youths, so wide and fair
A congregation in its budding-time
Of health, and hope, and beauty, all at once
So many divers samples from the growth
Of life's sweet season could have seen unmoved
That miscellaneous garland of wild flowers
Decking the matron temples of a place
So famous through the world? To me, at least,
It was a goodly prospect: for, in sooth,
Though I had learnt betimes to stand unpropped,
And independent musings pleased me so
That spells seemed on me when I was alone,
Yet could I only cleave to solitude
In lonely places; if a throng was near
That way I leaned by nature; for my heart
Was social, and loved idleness and joy.
Not seeking those who might participate
My deeper pleasures nay, (nay, I had not once,
Though not unused to mutter lonesome songs,
Even with myself divided such delight,
Or looked that way for aught that might be clothed
In human language language), easily I passed
From the remembrances of better things,
And slipped into the weekday works of youth,ordinary works
Unburthened, unalarmed, and unprofaned.Of careless youth, unburthened, unalarmed.
Caverns 'Caverns' there were within my mind which sun
Could never penetrate, yet did there not
Want store of leafy arbours 'arbours' where the light
Might enter in at will. Companionships,
Friendships, acquaintances, were welcome all;all.
We sauntered, played, we rioted, or rioted; we talked
Unprofitable talk at morning hours,hours;
Drifted about along the streets and walks,
Read lazily in lazy trivial books, went forth
To gallop through the country in blind zeal
Of senseless horsemanship, or on the breast
Of Cam sailed boisterously, and let the stars
Come out, forth, perhaps without one quiet thought.
Such was the tenor of the opening second act
In this new life. Imagination slept,
And yet not utterly: utterly. I could not print
Ground where the grass had yielded to the steps
Of generations of illustrious men,
Unmoved; Unmoved. I could not always lightly pass
Through the same gateways, sleep where they had slept,
Wake where they waked, range that enclosure inclosure old,
That garden of great intellects, undisturbed.
Place also by the side of this dark sense
Of nobler noble feeling, that those spiritual men,
Even the great Newton's own etherial ethereal self,
Seemed humbled in these precincts, precincts thence to be
The more beloved, invested here with tasksendeared. Their several memories here
Of life's plain business, as a (Even like their persons in their portraits clothed
With the accustomed garb of daily garb.—
Dictators at the plough a change that left
All genuine admiration unimpaired.life)
Put on a lowly and a touching grace
Of more distinct humanity, that left
All genuine admiration unimpaired.
Beside the pleasant mills Mill of Trompington
I laughed with Chaucer; Chaucer in the hawthorn shadeshade;
Heard him, while birds were warbling, tell his tales
Of amorous passion. And that gentle bardBard,
Chosen by the Muses for their Page of State,
Sweet Spencer, moving through his clouded heaven
With the moon's beauty and the moon's soft pace—
I called him brother, Englishman, and friend.
Yea, our blind poet, who, in his later day
Stood almost single, uttering odious truth,
Darkness before, and danger's voice behind—
Soul awful, if the earth hath ever lodged
An awful soul I seemed to see him here
Familiarly, and in his scholar's dress
Bounding before me, yet a stripling youth,
A boy, no better, with his rosy cheeks
Angelical, keen eye, courageous look,
And conscious step of purity and pride.State—
Sweet Spenser, moving through his clouded heaven
With the moon's beauty and the moon's soft pace,
I called him Brother, Englishman, and Friend!
Yea, our blind Poet, who in his later day,
Stood almost single; uttering odious truth—
Darkness before, and danger's voice behind,
Soul awful if the earth has ever lodged
An awful soul I seemed to see him here
Familiarly, and in his scholar's dress
Bounding before me, yet a stripling youth—
A boy, no better, with his rosy cheeks
Angelical, keen eye, courageous look,
And conscious step of purity and pride.
Among the band of my compeers was one,one
My class-fellow at school, whose Whom chance it was
To lodge had stationed in the apartments which had beenvery room
Time out of mind honored Honoured by Milton's name—
The very shell reputed of the abode
Which he had tenanted. name. O Temperate bard!temperate Bard!
One afternoon, Be it confest that, for the first time I set foottime, seated
In this they Within thy innocent nest lodge and oratory,
Seated with others in One of a festive ring
Of commonplace convention, circle, I to theepoured out
Poured out libations, Libations, to thy memory drankdrank, till pride
Within my private thoughts, till my brain reeled,And gratitude grew dizzy in a brain
Never so clouded excited by the fumes of wine
Before that hour, or since. Thence, Then, forth I ran
From that assembly, the assembly; through a length of streetsstreets,
Ran ostrich-like Ran, ostrich-like, to reach our chapel door
In not a desperate or opprobrious time,
Albeit long after the importunate bell
Had stopped, with wearisome Cassandra voice
No longer haunting the dark winter night.
Call back, O friend, Friend! a moment to thy mindmind,
The place itself and fashion of the rites.
Upshouldering in a dislocated lump
With shallow ostentatious carelessnesscareless ostentation shouldering up
My surplice, gloried in and yet despised,
I clove in pride through the inferior throngthrong I clove
Of the plain burghers, Burghers, who in audience stood
On the last skirts of their permitted ground,
Beneath Under the pealing organ. Empty thoughts,thoughts!
I am ashamed of them; them: and that great bard,Bard,
And thou, O friend, Friend! who in thy ample mind
Hast stationed placed me for reverence and love,high above my best deserts,
Ye will forgive the weakness of that hour,
In some of its unworthy vanitiesvanities,
Brother of to many more.
In this mixed sort
The months passed on, remissly, not giving given up
To wilful alienation from the right,
Or walks of open scandal, but in vague
And loose indifference, easy likings, aims
Of a low pitch duty and zeal dismissed,